Thursday, October 4, 2007

(insert big sigh here...)

Trying to cheer myself up today. The Bible commands us to Rejoice! and I can't muster up a smile today. I just feel guilty and ashamed of myself...

I found out last night that my husband has been feeling really stretched. He has worked like 110 hours in 15 days. And he has helped me out around the house. I have no excuses. I should keep my house better. I should have dinner ready. I should be there to help him out. I am the help mate! Shoulda Coulda Woulda... I WILL. Do better.

I also talked a friend of mine into getting her hair cut. The stylist did a crummy job and now, she is unhappy. I feel like I pushed or pressured her into it. And now, she will be feeling down for a while until she gets used to it or it grows back. I just wish I would have kept my big trap shut.

I am really struggling today. Please Lord, if you are reading my blog today... :) Give me what I need to make today, what you intended it to be for me. If I am supposed to be feeling this way, just show me what I need to do to fix these issues. I don't want Justin to be unhappy. I never meant to make Annie do something she was uncomfortable with doing. I feel like a failure today. An F- for me... my cat is throwing up, I must go...

1 comment:

Melody said...

Sending big hugs to you today!

By helping you around the house, do you mean housework? If so, check out She has a great system to get things into routine. It's really helped me - especially when I first made the transition to staying home. You can do it!